I dream about movies

*pleased.* And I only got it for writing Sherlock-fanfic.

In my quest for three outlines before I come over to England (6 days...) I have two. The fact that I had those the day after the fiancé set the goal means he made Saturday the deadline for the third one.

I am so out of ideas right now.

Yes, I did write 449 words today on a plotbunny that bit me after listening to Pseudopod's The Undoing (warning, bit graphic when it comes to surgical procedures), but that does not a novel make.

If it were at all possible, I'd like to have a desk in my bedroom, and my computer up there as well. But yeah, that'd mean no Internet, and I can't fit in the desk and my bed comfortably.

The privacy it'd offer me would be great. The comments that I spend so much time up there, not so much.

Right now, writing for me is a hard struggle. I don't ever seem to find the motivation for it, and the actual putting words on paper/the screen is like pulling teeth. It's hard, and I doubt just about every letter I write. So why do I write?

I get ideas, sure. I don't have the skills to pull any of them off right now, but the ideas are there. Even if they are blatantly cribbed from other sources (as I noticed again when I looked over my list of ideas for NaNo 2006). I keep investing in notebooks and pens, knowing I don't need special things to write. I just need paper and a pen, not a 15E-notebook and green pens. But I like the feeling of having something that is just for writing.

But am I writing in the hopes of getting published one day, or just so I can point to a large stack of manuscripts, which I can let other people read without embarrassment? I am very uncertain about what I want to accomplish, causing me to flounder in my writing. Hoot thinks I should just write for the sake of it, and I agree, but I still think I need a goal. Something to work towards. (After I beat my procrastination with a large stick, that is.)

I finished a short, unrelated, story! Next to my fanfic, it's the only one I've ever finished. It feels weird to get that far.

I like to call myself a writer, in the privacy of my own head, so it's always nice if I can prove it to myself. Esteem-issues, me? Never!

Something I have been wondering since I saw the Christian writers-thread in the Writing Group-forum on NaNo: does being a Christian mean that you have to write about your faith? One of the adages of writing is 'Write what you know', or 'Write what you care about.' For me, my faith falls squarely in both categories. But does that mean that I have to write about it? Will it make other people doubt my level of commitment to God if I don't mention Him in my work? Would it be considered preachy to even just mention a church standing in the background. let alone write about matters of doctrine and faith?

Or do I worry too much and should I just write and see what comes out?

But how many write after coming home from work? That's 4.45 am, for those playing at home. Feh! Feh I say!

Nano talks about writing totems. I just wonder whether people'd go into writer's block if they lose theirs.

Why am I reading a writing-board when I am not writing?

Continued from here.

( There's no such thing as a quiet drink )

Also taking part in novel_in_90 with this. Wish me luck.

Worcound: 774.

I hit a motivational block. I can't find the motivation to write anymore. The fact that since I can't write much tomorrow and so have like 3K for today is not a big help either. Right now I just want to trash everything and forget about NaNo.