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bookish_dragon) wrote2006-11-17 05:19 pm
bookish_dragon) wrote2006-11-17 05:19 pm
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NaNoWriMo, part 11
Ameena walked briskly towards the abbot's office. She had a pretty good idea what he wanted to talk about. She wondered why he had not discussed this with her earlier. The monk who usually sat outside the office was not there. Ameena knocked on the door.
"Enter, please," the abbot's voice called. She opened the door and went inside.
"Father." She bowed. She looked up at him. He was looking swamped in work, and had a guilty look in his eyes when he looked at her.
"Sister Ameena. Please sit down."
"Thank you, Father." She sat down in the seat in front of his desk. "What did you want to speak to me about, Father?" Residual anger made her forward.
"How are you doing?" he asked her. He shuffled the papers on his desk.
"I am doing fine, thank you Father." Her tail hung limply behind her.
"You are not having trouble with your work?"
She shook her head. "No. Father."
He sighed. "I do have something to discuss with you, Sister. Please do not think your state of duty has been anything less than satisfactory, or that you are being sent away." He rubbed his head, searching for words and pushing on. "However, it would be in your best interests if you left the monastery. I do not think it would be good if you stayed here. I know the world will not always want to see you, or like you, but that is a burden we all have to bear. However, going out there on your own is quite the daunting task, so I have asked the latest group of visitors to take you along. I understand you have already met them, and are eating with them. That is good. I would strongly suggest that you go with them. They are good people." He looked at her, a bit desperate. He hoped she would say 'yes'. "You can not spend the next five hundred years here. Plus whatever you get from...that." He gestured at her tail. "Please consider this."
"Yes," she said, simply. She was touched by his concern for her.
"Very good, Sister Ameena. Do let me know when you have made up your mind."
"I have, Father. The answer is 'yes'. I will go with them."
"That is a fast answer. Are you sure?"
"Yes, I am sure. I have known about this since last night." She felt strangely calm. The abbot's look of guilt deepened.
"Ah yes, I see. You should have been told earlier. I do not have any explanations as to why you were not. I am deeply sorry for that. Please do not think that we want you out of here. We just want you to be happy and have a good life. Here is not the best place to get it."
"I understand, Father Morgenstern. Thank you, for giving me this." She got up and bowed. "Was there anything else? I think they want to leave today."
"That was all, Sister Ameena. I do hope all will go well for you, wherever you go." He smiled at her, got up and returned the bow. "May the gods watch over you."
"As they will over you and the monastery. Good bye, Father Morgenstern." Ameena turned and left the room. The abbot returned to his seat, hoping she would do well.
The brew had not spoilt or gone wrong otherwise, Olgyu learned when she visited Sister Emmar again. She grinned at Olgyu. "No worries there. Was that the only reason you came here, to make sure I would keep my work here at the monastery?" She winked and moved closer. Olgyu inwardly cursed. This was going to become more difficult than she thought.
"We are leaving today. I am sorry." She watched Sister Emmar's face fall.
"Oh. Will you be returning here?" She bit her lip and looked up hopefully at Olgyu.
"I do not know. Most likely not." 'You were only a fling,' were the words she could not bring herself to say. She did not want too hurt the monk further. She should never have slept with her.
"Oh. I see." Sister Emmar turned abruptly away from the warrior. "You have enough of the pain-suppressor to last you at least a couple of months. Do not overdo it. That will not end well for you. I hope you have asuccessful journey, wherever you are going and whatever you are going to do."
"I am sorry, but you knew I would not be staying."
"You could have thought of that before seducing me."
'It was not that hard,' she bit back. She did not want to fight. It always cast a pallor over the oncoming journey and attracted bad luck. "I know. I am sorry. We are both to blame for that."
Sister Emmar was staring blindly at the wall. It was love. This would not have happened if love had not been involved. Why was Olgyu walking away from that? "I will come with you." She turned back around.
Olgyu looked shocked. "What? What about your work here? You are needed here."
"You also need a healer. There are enough people nearby with the same skills I have." She stuck out her jaw, looking determined.
"What about the order? I thought they were your family."
"So were my brothers. What good is family when love comes into play? Are you trying to stop me?"
'Kord help me! She thinks this is love.' "I am trying to make sure you think about what you are saying. You can not just leave here."
"You can. You are doing so now."
"That is not the same. I did not promise I would serve one particular place. You are bound, I am not."
Tears glistened in Sister Emmar's eyes. "You do not want me anymore."
'I did, for just the one night.' Olgyu did not know what to say. She wished she had not come here. It was not her usual style. She walked over to Sister Emmar and put her arm around her. "Shh, shh, it will be all right," she murmured while patting the monk's shoulder.
The monk leaned into here. "How can you say that? You are going away." She put her head on Olgyu's chest.
"It is a hard life out there. Can you handle that?" Olgyu tilted up Sister Emmar's head and looked her in the eyes. "It is hard and dangerous and could even be fatal. It is also dirty and cold. You would not have all your things within reach. You have to pull your own weight, you can not let the others do everything or expect to be taken care off. Do you understand?"
Slowly the monk nodded. She could not look away from Olgyu's eyes. Her plan to go with her seemed less sound after this warning. She still wanted to carry it out and go with her. "I do. But you will be there. I want to be with you."
Olgyu inwardly groaned. "I will not always be there. Think, please. Do not do this because of one person. That will never end well. Do it because you want to for yourself and you think you can handle what the road will throw at you." She sat the monk down on a chair. "Please, think about it. I will talk to Marnak and see whether we will be able to take you with us." She left the room quickly. Far enough away, she cursed loudly and long, scaring some monks working nearby. She kicked a wall. What had she gotten herself into this time? She shook her head and walked off in search of Marnak.
"Enter, please," the abbot's voice called. She opened the door and went inside.
"Father." She bowed. She looked up at him. He was looking swamped in work, and had a guilty look in his eyes when he looked at her.
"Sister Ameena. Please sit down."
"Thank you, Father." She sat down in the seat in front of his desk. "What did you want to speak to me about, Father?" Residual anger made her forward.
"How are you doing?" he asked her. He shuffled the papers on his desk.
"I am doing fine, thank you Father." Her tail hung limply behind her.
"You are not having trouble with your work?"
She shook her head. "No. Father."
He sighed. "I do have something to discuss with you, Sister. Please do not think your state of duty has been anything less than satisfactory, or that you are being sent away." He rubbed his head, searching for words and pushing on. "However, it would be in your best interests if you left the monastery. I do not think it would be good if you stayed here. I know the world will not always want to see you, or like you, but that is a burden we all have to bear. However, going out there on your own is quite the daunting task, so I have asked the latest group of visitors to take you along. I understand you have already met them, and are eating with them. That is good. I would strongly suggest that you go with them. They are good people." He looked at her, a bit desperate. He hoped she would say 'yes'. "You can not spend the next five hundred years here. Plus whatever you get from...that." He gestured at her tail. "Please consider this."
"Yes," she said, simply. She was touched by his concern for her.
"Very good, Sister Ameena. Do let me know when you have made up your mind."
"I have, Father. The answer is 'yes'. I will go with them."
"That is a fast answer. Are you sure?"
"Yes, I am sure. I have known about this since last night." She felt strangely calm. The abbot's look of guilt deepened.
"Ah yes, I see. You should have been told earlier. I do not have any explanations as to why you were not. I am deeply sorry for that. Please do not think that we want you out of here. We just want you to be happy and have a good life. Here is not the best place to get it."
"I understand, Father Morgenstern. Thank you, for giving me this." She got up and bowed. "Was there anything else? I think they want to leave today."
"That was all, Sister Ameena. I do hope all will go well for you, wherever you go." He smiled at her, got up and returned the bow. "May the gods watch over you."
"As they will over you and the monastery. Good bye, Father Morgenstern." Ameena turned and left the room. The abbot returned to his seat, hoping she would do well.
The brew had not spoilt or gone wrong otherwise, Olgyu learned when she visited Sister Emmar again. She grinned at Olgyu. "No worries there. Was that the only reason you came here, to make sure I would keep my work here at the monastery?" She winked and moved closer. Olgyu inwardly cursed. This was going to become more difficult than she thought.
"We are leaving today. I am sorry." She watched Sister Emmar's face fall.
"Oh. Will you be returning here?" She bit her lip and looked up hopefully at Olgyu.
"I do not know. Most likely not." 'You were only a fling,' were the words she could not bring herself to say. She did not want too hurt the monk further. She should never have slept with her.
"Oh. I see." Sister Emmar turned abruptly away from the warrior. "You have enough of the pain-suppressor to last you at least a couple of months. Do not overdo it. That will not end well for you. I hope you have asuccessful journey, wherever you are going and whatever you are going to do."
"I am sorry, but you knew I would not be staying."
"You could have thought of that before seducing me."
'It was not that hard,' she bit back. She did not want to fight. It always cast a pallor over the oncoming journey and attracted bad luck. "I know. I am sorry. We are both to blame for that."
Sister Emmar was staring blindly at the wall. It was love. This would not have happened if love had not been involved. Why was Olgyu walking away from that? "I will come with you." She turned back around.
Olgyu looked shocked. "What? What about your work here? You are needed here."
"You also need a healer. There are enough people nearby with the same skills I have." She stuck out her jaw, looking determined.
"What about the order? I thought they were your family."
"So were my brothers. What good is family when love comes into play? Are you trying to stop me?"
'Kord help me! She thinks this is love.' "I am trying to make sure you think about what you are saying. You can not just leave here."
"You can. You are doing so now."
"That is not the same. I did not promise I would serve one particular place. You are bound, I am not."
Tears glistened in Sister Emmar's eyes. "You do not want me anymore."
'I did, for just the one night.' Olgyu did not know what to say. She wished she had not come here. It was not her usual style. She walked over to Sister Emmar and put her arm around her. "Shh, shh, it will be all right," she murmured while patting the monk's shoulder.
The monk leaned into here. "How can you say that? You are going away." She put her head on Olgyu's chest.
"It is a hard life out there. Can you handle that?" Olgyu tilted up Sister Emmar's head and looked her in the eyes. "It is hard and dangerous and could even be fatal. It is also dirty and cold. You would not have all your things within reach. You have to pull your own weight, you can not let the others do everything or expect to be taken care off. Do you understand?"
Slowly the monk nodded. She could not look away from Olgyu's eyes. Her plan to go with her seemed less sound after this warning. She still wanted to carry it out and go with her. "I do. But you will be there. I want to be with you."
Olgyu inwardly groaned. "I will not always be there. Think, please. Do not do this because of one person. That will never end well. Do it because you want to for yourself and you think you can handle what the road will throw at you." She sat the monk down on a chair. "Please, think about it. I will talk to Marnak and see whether we will be able to take you with us." She left the room quickly. Far enough away, she cursed loudly and long, scaring some monks working nearby. She kicked a wall. What had she gotten herself into this time? She shook her head and walked off in search of Marnak.